I lay in bed last night, dozing to the news, and then woke up long enough to watch about five minutes of Leno before I shut it off. The room seemed peculiarly bright—even by the yard light standards—and I strained to look through the window from my side of the bed, so as not to wake my husband. Did anyone else notice the moon last night? It was full, not particularly large, but was a beacon in the night. I mean this thing was the brightest I think I’d ever seen it, and almost seemed to be lit from within. Strange. I didn’t think much more about it, rolled back over and went to sleep, then awoke to my husband stirring around about 4 am. He woke me from a dream—that of which the details are fuzzy now—but I do remember saying to him while still half-asleep, “Do you see how bright the moon is? That’s so weird. I wonder if there’s any truth to what they’re saying about the world ending on Saturday.” Then I awoke again to the alarm going off at six.
Yeah, I’m a complete whack-job, I know, but that moon really bugged me. Enough that when I came downstairs and got on the pc I looked it up. It’s a full moon in Scorpio. Who woulda thunk? Guess what I am? That’s right! Okay, so here are some excerpts I pulled from a few different websites.
The full moon May 17 will be a very compelling one for you as it falls in Scorpio at 26 degrees and receives a beam from surprise planet Uranus. When a full moon occurs in one’s own sign, it means that something dearly important is reaching a culmination, but only you would know what that might be. This month’s full moon will be the only one of the year in Scorpio, so this will be a key moment for you, and doubly so if you were born on November 18 or within four days of this date.
It could signal the beginning or end of a relationship, or a fateful meeting. It could be linked to a major career moment, one that would bring great prestige. The moon rules your ninth house, so you may be working with people abroad, or actually traveling quite a distance. You may get or finish a big media project for TV, the Internet, or other publishing venue. If you have been working with a lawyer on anything – a case, a patent, or trademark – it could finish up. Whatever is coming, it’s important to you. Keep your health strong, dear Scorpio, especially near this full moon, as it looks like you’ll be really busy.
Tue May 17: Full Moon Eclipse
This is your Full Moon, Scorpio, and it is a big one! You can make some radical, far-reaching changes in coming weeks. Venus and Mars have just entered Taurus, your solar seventh house, so look forward to a period of harmony and pleasant interactions with your partner. It’s a good time to make plans for the future. Fortunate colours are crimson and alabaster. Lucky numbers are 1 and 7.
It is the annual Scorpio Full Moon, always an emotionally loaded time, when we need to face stuff about ourselves and our relationships that may be difficult to wear, but also when we may achieve real intimacy because we are more ready tIt could be a great time of the year to explore the nature of emotional and material attachments and dependencies and do something about them, because the Scorpio Moon is never happy with superficial or indifferent explanations, intent at revealing instead what we kept secret even to ourselves. The result could be a deepening of our awareness of who we are, our feelings for someone or something, a creative project or job we have embraced, or any other type of commitment. Or it could spell a depressive personal period, or the end of relationships and projects that haven’t lived to our expectations and that now reveal their shortcomings in a glaring light.
The idealization of life and love is definitely over at the time of a Scorpio Full Moon, while we may be filled with a new sense of purpose and personal power, unless too entangled in emotional dramas. Positively meeting the shadow will bring us closer to becoming whole.
Before Scorpio it is like the time before eating the apple of the knowledge of Good and Evil in the Garden of Eden. In Scorpio we meet the tempting Serpent, we will never be the same again.
Okay, so what have I been able to gather from these few snippets of information, and the several others I read that I never bothered to post? Well, I guess that now is supposed to be a time of personal enlightenment, I’m good and fed up with all the wishy-washy shit in my life, and I have the urge to make some radical changes that will benefit me. Which basically means I’m about to become selfish as hell! Did you all gather that too? Umm…Isn’t that what I’ve been doing by exploring the other side of myself in this blog? You mean it’s going to get worse? Ouch!!
Now laugh if you want, but I do believe there is something to the planets and signs we’re born under. If you’ve been reading my blog for a while, you should know that I also believe in the paranormal, and people that are just ‘sensitive’ to things. Call them psychics or whatever you want, but I feel more comfortable using the word sensitive’s because of my personal attachment to Christianity… which according to my family DO NOT go hand in hand. I accept that. I also cannot deny how I feel, and what appears ‘real’ to me. All these things are real to me because of experiences I’ve had with each. Which is why I’m learning to pay close attention when I feel something or have dreams. Precognitive dreaming runs in my family. Pay heed to your dreams. Trust me. They always ‘mean’ something, even if it’s not obvious what it is.
So now I’m sitting here wondering, Hmm…what lurks around the corner for Lou? I didn’t know we were going to have a full moon, but it brought itself to my attention. When my husband roused me from my sleep, the first thing I thought of was that moon, and it triggered something in me from all the hocus-pocus I’ve been hearing about the world ending on May 21st. And you never can tell. It very well may end that day. Or on the 22nd, or 23rd, 24th, etc.. Does it matter? Isn’t it all going to end for each of us anyway when we die? By the way, in case it does, I’m saying my goodbyes now so I don’t forget. “Goodbye, my fellow bloggers. My time with you has been wonderful. I wouldn’t have missed it for the world!” (Okay, back to reality) So what am I supposed to make of the moon trying to get my attention, keeping it, causing me enough concern that I look it up on my pc, finding it’s a full moon in my birth sign, and then prompting me to change what isn’t working in my life? Probably that I should change! Duh! Simplicity first, people!
So I’m sitting here wondering if there is supposed to be some emotional tug of war going on inside me that stirs me into action, or something. Any Scorpios reading this? Do you feel anything stirring inside you? I’ll be honest, the closest I even remotely come to a stirring sensation is the coffee inside me prompting me to rise and use the potty. Nope…not even a twinge of “Wow! I should’ve had a V-8!” moment going on. I’m thinking perhaps some of us bull-headed people are less inclined to feel the stirring, and need an act of God, our husband’s coming home and telling us they’ve been cheating SOB’s like Arnold Schwarzenegger just did to Maria Shriver, or our house falling down around us to give us a clue it’s time to move on. Apparently I’m daft, because I can still find more reasons to stay and put up with shit, then leave. This can’t possibly be love, could it? P-Shaw! Not me, the heartless Bitch!
Well, if change needs to happen…simplicity first, I guess. I just polished off eight, fat-free, Devil’s Food Chocolate cookies, because it was the simplest thing I could find for breakfast. I could probably run a rag through the house and mop up some of the dust today, but the weather is nice, and laying in a lounger this afternoon sounds like the simplest way to spend my time. I could put away all the laundry I did that is now sitting folded in baskets, but wouldn’t it be simpler if I just had the guys put away their own shit? Ahhh…simplicity first! Maybe that’s the key. My making simple changes create a chain reaction of bigger ones. Think? May all of you have a simply wonderful day too. And I’ll keep you posted as to whether the house falls down or my husband pulls an ‘Arnold’.