Sometimes life with its twists and turns surprises me. Like when something goes totally afoul, you don’t consider any good could possibly come from it, and it turns out to be the catalyst to something wonderful. I just shake my head when fate plays these tricks on me, and remind myself that I really have to pay attention to all the little details before drawing conclusions. The past couple of days have been such.
Someone or something hacked, phished, or whatever the fuck it is they do, and got into my email contacts. I’ve never been more embarrassed. They/it started sending people on my contacts list all these links to sites for products like Viagra. Oh, you can only imagine that I was getting responses. My niece who is single and dating notified me that she definitely didn’t need anything like that product. My buddy told me he was sure he didn’t need it yet. My sister was completely confused by whether it was something caused from her site or mine. Anyway, yeah…I got reactions that left me red-faced.
Now, this probably wouldn’t have been a big deal if it were not for the fact that all these contacts are ones that have been accumulating since I opened this email address SEVEN YEARS AGO. Now is probably the time to also mention PISSY IS LAZY AND DON’T DELETE ANYTHING OR ANYONE! So here I am groaning upon realizing this has happened, because I knew that there were businesses on there, people I’ve had a falling out with, and others that I just haven’t spoken to in a while and sure as hell didn’t want this to be my way of saying “Hi. How ya doing?” Know what I mean? I can’t even begin to tell you how embarrassed I was, and immediately typed up a note of apology and sent it out to those whose opinions I actually cared about; notifying them that I would be using another email address for correspondence in the future. Case closed.
I guess I didn’t even think that perhaps this occurring would remind those I have sort of lost touch with that I’m still around and to get a hold of me, but it did. I got an email back from a good buddy that I haven’t spoken to in a while, and also Beth’s sister. Neither of which I intended to ignore, but rather just got preoccupied with my daily life (the have-to’s and need-to’s) and forgot about. Sorry! All’s well that ends well though, and something really positive did come from it.
Till now I have kept my blog a secret from most I know–other than a couple of friends and family members–for fear the raw material I sometimes use would hurt others. I’m well aware that a lot of my pain, happiness, good and bad memories are a result of my interaction with others, and although I felt I needed to air these feelings in order to heal, didn’t want to put anyone else in pain because of my actions. I was especially concerned about how Beth’s family would receive my sharing her death and what it’s done to me with all of you. The last thing I’d wanted was to hurt them more than they had already been hurt by her suicide, so I kept this blog to myself. Being given the opportunity of Beth’s sister contacting me, I gained the courage to share this tidbit of information with her, and invited her onto my blog. I am so glad I did. She read a little of what I’ve shared with all of you about Beth, and seemed pleased that I was attempting to turn this terrible tragedy into something positive by trying to help others. Her acceptance, permission, has given me an incredible peace about the choice I made to do so. Something wonderful came out of something that appeared to be negative.
Oh, and I might also mention that it snowed yesterday. YAY! Pissy loves snow, doncha know… And although it’s warming up again today and it’s nearly gone, me and the boys went out into it and got some pics I wanted to share with all of you. It was absolutely beautiful. There’s nothing quite so pretty as winter in the country. Enjoy! 🙂
My little corner of Iowa. Ahhhh…..